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December 10, 2010

MY CHRISTMAS WON’T BE THE SAME WITHOUT HIM

Blah. Blah. Blah. I’d never thought I’ve come this far. I’d never dreamed of loving someone who loved me as much as I loved him. I’d never thought that God would give me a person whom I craved most by now.

I know that every person in the world right now is experiencing this stuff. But I reckon mine’s quite different.

He’s always on my heart, even though my mind keeps on erasing him. On my way, on the other side of the road, at the park, but I always regret him, told him I don’t see him, as if I don’t know him, and don’t care for him at all. Whenever my friends talk about him, I just keep on pretending that I’m angry at him,l and don’t love him anymore.

But in every word (or shall I say lies?) that comes from my mouth just reminds and bounds back at me that I still love him as he loved me more than anything in the world.

Sometimes, I just really want to cry, but I just can’t. Anyone around me is happy, so why am I so sad? But even though I’m always in a happy crowd, I actually get lost in it. I still want him with me…

Christmas is coming… and it won’t be the same without him. L

*This was written way back 2 years ago, when I was just in my 3rd year. I actually found this on one of my old notes in high school while searching for something useful in my Math 14 class. Hahaha! I just can’t help myself but laugh harder and deeper rather than pitying myself for some grammatical inaccuracies, dangling modifiers, and few mistakes in parallelism of words and phrases. I’ve realized that I’m not that quite good in writing during my high school days, well not until what I am now. Seriously, guys. Hehehe. And hey, am I really that childish way back then? What was more foolish than loving someone who was, eeeew!! Haha. It’s so yuccckyyyy. I should’ve known then. Hihihi. For now, let’s not go deeper than that. Forget about it, okaaay?  It was just some part of my stupidity during my, you know idiocy days. Huahaha!

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A Matter of Choice

Posted: October 14, 2012 in Education
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Most grade-schoolers  intently  dream  about  the  day  they   will   walk   across   the   stage   on commencement day and receive their diplomas. They are under the impression they will be free from all work  in  their  life,  and  be  able  to  finally  live. When   they  get  to  high  school,  they soon realize the biggest  decisions  in  their  life  will  soon  be  made  and their work has just begun. A person graduating from high school can take many directions in life,  most  graduates  either dorm  at  college,  commute to college, or begin working.

To begin with, many graduates run from   their  parents and desire to go to college as  far  away from home as possible. When graduates move away, they get  their first taste of   living away from home which brings   added responsibilities. Cooking, cleaning, and   doing laundry  are a few examples of how college students have to  learn to  provide for themselves. College students who move away have to build relationships and   meet new people; these  new   friends can take them  down paths   they should not go. Such as a college student who starts partying and getting into sinful acts, their mom is not there to scold them. Also, earning a college degree gives a  person greater  earning potential  and the ability to work in the field of their choice. A person  majoring in marine  biology will find a  job in marine biology because they went to college for it because it is what they  enjoy doing. Going away to college can be a wonderful time for a person to mature  and start their adult life, but it can also  give a person the opportunity to go downhill in life decisions.

Another  decision a  person  may choose  after graduating  high school is  commuting  to college. Commuting is  not a  possibility  for everyone  graduating  high school  because of location, but can be a great opportunity for those who are in  drivable distance to a college. Living with parents and driving to college can save a college student money  because  they do not have to pay to dorm. Staying with parents means mom  is still  around to provide  home cooked meals and  life does  not  dramatically change from high school. A commuting college  student can  stay under the  wing of their parents  for  longer, such as getting their parents to continue to  pay for  groceries and  other necessities  of life. A commuting college student can easily  stay in  touch with high school  friends and  can also  make  new  ones in  college. The influence of peer pressure is not as great to a  commuting student because they will not be on campus on the  weekends  unless  they choose to be.  Commuting to  college can be a great way to save money, while still earning a college degree.

Last, many high school graduates decide not  to strive  for a  college  degree  and  join  the work force right after graduating. Choosing not to further education past  high  school  doesn’t  give  a person the earning  potential  a college graduate has by  graduating  from  college, although  they  will  also  not incur school debt. This means they will not be forced to pay back expensive school loans and will be able to have more financial freedom in the short term. A  person joining the work force has the ability to stay in touch with friends in the area they live in and can either live at  home for a few years after graduating or find their own place to reside. Joining the work force out  of high  school  is  a great  option  for  some people who choose to do so but is not the best plan for those who want to further their education.

A person decision about what they will do after high school, weather  it  is going away to college, commuting to college or  joining  the  work  force, will  affect  them the rest of their life. A lot of thought and prayer should go into any decision, especially  those  which  will  affect  a person for the rest of their life. In the end, if a person  follows  what  they  believe God wants them to do it will end up the way God wants it.

Paano na ba natin masasabi ngayon na ang kabataan ay ang pag-asa ng bayan? Sa panayon ngayon, tila malabo na talaga ang konseptong ito.Pagmasdan mo ang paligid mo, at sana makita mo kung ano ang iniisip ko.

Ang mga kabataan likas namarurupok. Pilit nilang snusunod kung ano ang uso sa mga panahong ito. Isana dito ay ang pagsunod sa mga nag tetrending na mga fashion designs, mga kantang kung hindi mo n a maintidihan dahil sa mabilis nitong tempo, pagkakandarapa sa mga kinagigiliwang KPOP group lalong lalong-lalo na ngayon na na sa modernong panahon na tayo ngayon, mabilis na ang pag-access natin sa Internet,samga social networking sites gaya ng facebook, twitter at tumblr.

Dahil samga impluwensyang ito, pagmasdan niyo, kung ano ang nagiging pekto nito sa mga kilos at gawi ng mgakabataan ngayon.Dati rati, balo’t na a lot sa kasuotan ang mgadalaga’t mahinhing mga Pilipina, ngayon, san ka pa makakakita ng ganyan? Aba’t totoo nga naglalabasan yung mga dalagang naka spaghetti straps at super shorts ang mas lala pa dyan ay meron pang ka holding hands na lalaki.Sa mga lalaki naman, noong araw, ay halos magkandarapang ligawan yung iniirog nila gagawin ang lahat para lang mapasakanila. Pero anona ngayon ang nangyayari? Hay nako. Dun na nila gnililigawan sa cellphone, o di kaya chat sa facebook. Tapos nkonting uto lang nung mga lalaki, bibigay naman agad yung mga babae.Ano ba naman yan? Marami na ngang nagdadalang-tao ang bata-bata pa tapos yung iba nama’y di na virgin dahil dito eh. Tapos hindina rin makapagtapos ng pagtapos ng pag-aaral. Di na ba sila nahiya? Paano na ang ating bayan nyan pag ganito nalang ang katangian ng ating henerasyoon?

Sa kabila namang banda, Maraming dahilan kung bakit nalululong ang mga kabataan sa masamang bisyo. At ang pangunahing dahilan nito ay kahirapan. Dahil sa hirap ng buhay, walang trabaho, walang pagkakakitaan, hindi makapag-aral at walang pagkakaabalahan matututo silang gumamit ng droga para pansamantalang makalimutan ang kanilang mga problema. Maaari din nila itong gamiting pampalakas ng loob para gumawa ng krimen o panandaliang pagkakakitaan tulad ng panghoholdap at pagnanakaw.

Nandyan din ang kawalan ng suporta mula sa pamilya. Kulang sila sa atensyon, pag-aalaga at pagmamahal mula sa magulang at sa lipunan. At hahanapin nila ito sa paggamit ng droga para takasan ang sakit ng kalooban.

Isa ring dahilan ay ang pagsama sa maling barkada o itinuturing na mga kaibigan. Sila ang naglulugmok sa mga walang muwang na mga kabataan. Kaya marapat lamang na kilalaning mabuti at piliin ang mga taong sinasamahan at kinakaibigan. Paggabay ng magulang at lipunan ay mahalagang kailangan ng bawat kabataan.

 

Ano nalang kaya ang mangyayari kung ang lahat ng mamayan dit sa Pilipinas sa  susunsunod na taon kung ganito ang kaugalian ng mga tao? Kawawa naman yung mga sususnod pang henerasyon kug susundin pa nila ang mga ganitong paraan ng pamumuhay. Sa mga kabataan, huwag niyo naman sanang     sirain ang inyong kinabukasan. Dahil maling-mali na talaga ang sistemang sinusunod natin ngayon. Mamulat na sana kayo sa katotohanan, iwaksi ang mali, sundin ang tamang landas.

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“Wake up and get ready. Today’s Sunday. We’ll go to the church together.” This would always be the words I long to hear from my Mom in every typical Sunday since I were young. Being raised in a family of devout Catholics, my Mom would always scold us, whenever we refused her invitation of going to church together. My Lola who is a Samaritan but had already passed away send us to a Parochial School, and there I was just two years old when I started going to school because during my older sister’s first day of school, I saw some kids my age listening happily on their teachers, and me being jealous to them, started pulling my Lola’s skirt all over again just to convince her to let me join on those kids. I was about to sit on the ground when she carried me and finally, let me join and interact with those kids and after which I had my first ever ID picture but not as a student but just as a visitor because they said that I’m underage yet. Right then I was able to learn how to pray, and learn the Christian doctrines by attending the Catechism classes. The happiest thing that happened to me right then was when I have been always chosen as one of the angels during some of the Christmas programs and I’m often excited whenever they fit the wings on me. That was my spiritual childhood years.

When I went to grade school, we always had Catechism classes conducted by some of the higher years during Wednesday afternoon before having our first period of class. And in my 6th grade, I was the one who voluntarily present myself to conduct Catechism classes to the lower years. I was very happy then, teaching young ones how to pray and make themselves know their God and bring closer to Him. In my high school years, I told my mom that I really want to join in the Charismatic movement that my classmates are joining, but she didn’t allow me because of the fact that many of the students involved there easily get pregnant. So my Mom was just curious about it, so she didn’t let me try to join in it. But during 1st Friday of the month, our school held a mass so I was always the one who would read the Gospel and my Mom would always let me bring some stuff to offer in the mass.

Now in my first year of college, I would probably say that I’m really getting spiritually mature. By the influence of our upperclassmen here in our dormitory, I would always go to church every Wednesday to do the Sacrament of Penance and after that attending on a Doctrine Class conducted by a Member of the Opus Dei, Miss Dulce. Every Saturday, I invite some girls to go to Tawili University Center, a place wherein students are taught how to deal physically, emotionally and most especially, spiritually on our stay here in the University to join activities there like meditation, doctrine classes, confessions and mentoring and lectures. Then I used to have a talk there with my mentor, Miss Vel on what are my concerns and problems with my studies. She taught me how to deal with those stuffs, how to talk with God always, pray without ceasing, pray the Holy Rosary, do some examination of conscience, and how to meditate. Then every month, I would invite some girls to go Tawili to join the recollection. And also, every night, I would invite some girls to pray the Holy Rosary in our meditation room here in our dorm. I’m really happy doing these kind of things, introduce God to people, bring them closer to Him, and help them grow spiritually like what I am experiencing. Then sometimes, somehow thoughts came into my mind way back during my childhood years up to this point in time, that I never really experienced that stage in my life that I didn’t care to have God as the center of my life. Actually, I’m so lucky and thankful, that I had been born in this world with God introduced to me by my family, so I grow up with God, live with Him, love Him unconditionally, and introduce Him unto other people’s life. What I am, is my gift from God, and what I do is my gift to Him. :))))

I really don’t feel like posting on my blog these days. I’m so depressed that i don’t want anybody else to talk with me or have a great time with me. Just so you know, I really don’t have time to post something on my blog because i really don’t feel like it. I just can’t stand it. I just can’t think of anybody else to miss right now as much as I hate missing him. Gaaaahd. This is my life. And I’m sure, this will not be the end of it. These things has anything to with God’s purpose why the hell am I here on earth. So why bother? I will just do the best out of me to cope up with these stuffs.Okay, I’d better go now. Huhu. I still have more things to deal with. 😦